So I said, I'm really attracted to Jonathan majors. Okay, I know what I just said. And I know my dad is probably freaking out right now, because he's listening to this. And that's okay. I was going to qualify it, and like, give you all of these other qualifications, like, you know, but I'm not gonna do that. I'm attracted to this, this guy. Because he lives in this space. That I don't think most people do. Right, there's a group of individuals that we collectively refer to as weird. Because we lack the, the language, to really describe how we feel about their presence, how we feel about how they move through the world. And Jonathan majors is one of the such characters he he exists in a in a realm of people like Janelle Monae or a Matthew McConaughey or maybe an Erica by do there's this, this essence of just how they move through the world that like, you're not really sure. If you want to be with them, be them be their friend, or just be around them. It's, it's a very attractive aura is probably the right word for it. It's it is it draws you in. Because it feels like that's it, it feels like a level of freedom that you're not experiencing in your life. That's what it is, if you don't know exactly, because we're not close to these individuals, like I've never met Jonathan majors, right? Um, I'm only watching him as an artist as he produces in things like Loki, or the harder they fall or, you know, even this GQ interview that he did of his tennis Central's like, the just the way that he's moving through life is this, it appears to have this level of freedom, this level of understanding of himself that I'm not sure I possess, and I'm drawn to it. And it is very attractive in that sense, right? The same thing is true of like a Matthew McConaughey. He, I was watching an interview once and he was talking about how his wife told him that it was time for him to go write like, he does this thing where he goes off into the mountains with a notebook and some beer. And he just spends time by himself. And his wife understands that, like he gets restless to a point where he's had too much interaction with people. Could you imagine that for a second, to be in a relationship with somebody who knows you so well, and is so secure with the relationship, that they understand that we've had too much interaction, and you need to go. And they are confident that you're going to come back when you need to? It is mind blowing? Right? It is very mind just that kind of a security in oneself. And then security in relationship is not something we see often. And it is very alluring. That was the word I was looking for earlier. Right? It's it's alluring. It's just it just draws you in. Right? And it's not something that like, it's something that you want to attain, but you weren't sure how, right, you didn't have words for it. You hadn't seen it? And so when you do, it's like, Oh, my God, how do I get close to that? And what's interesting, right, is that, like, in my experience, these people don't want you close to them. Right? They are very, very clear about the space that they give to public in the space that they hold to themselves in the ones who are close to them. Because they understand that you just want to be close to them. Because you don't know enough about you. And you want to be close because you're trying to understand something about you. You don't really want them. You want what they represent as a complete version of you. Which is weird, right? That's not weird. A good way. That's weird, a bad way. But that's this, like, you're not really in relationship with me. You're not really consuming me, for me to understand me better. It's really about you. Right? And I'm in this camp. You don't I mean, I'm still learning more about me, which is why Jonathan majors, this
