So I said, maybe our Jewish brothers and sisters had it right. They thought so much of God, that they didn't even pronounce his name. That there's a level of holiness or reverence that exists within the Jewish faith. They don't even pronounce God's name. It's represented by a few letters and you, when you see it written, the vowels don't even exist. They're so that you can't pronounce it. Not as it's written. And we've become so common with God that we'll use His name in vain. God has become so common, so almost insignificant to us. That there is no reverence for worshiping God. There's, there's very little reverence for a place for God, there's there's no holiness about it. It's almost scary. Because if, if there's no reverence for God, then there's no reverence for anything. And maybe, maybe that's how we ended up where we are. As a people, right as a culture. We have no respect, or reverence for anything. Not people. Fence. Not God, not personal space. There's no reverence everything is a game. Everything is common. There's there's no space for the awe of God anymore. Where we're so close that we feel like that's just like a homeboy. Right? Like, Jesus is my homeboy. And okay, you know what I'm saying? Like, he sent Jesus so that we may know, God, I get that right. But can we have some awe? Can we be awe struck by God? Is there is there wonder anymore Can I be in such awe of God that that it brings me to tears that a God of the universe would care so much about me when he would send His Son to die then he cares so much about me that he makes sure that I can breathe that'd be traps the right amount of air on a planet makes sure that I can breathe, I was getting ready to go to dinner with my, with my sister and my, my grandmother and my mom. All adopted. My adopted mom, my adopted sister, my adopted grandmother is beside the point. And they live in a building. Right? They live in this like apartment building. And it's one of the taller apartment buildings that I've ever been to and I remember walking up on it and being a bit dizzy when I tried to look up at it because it was so tall like it's it's almost a makes you remember how small you are in front of it. And I couldn't remember the last time that I thought about God that way. The looking up at the vastness of God stumbled me, made me a bit dizzy and in awe reminding myself of how small I am not necessarily insignificant, but just small. We live in a time where we can control everything, right or we feel like we can and so we're in awe of nothing because nothing surprises us anymore. When's the last time you felt something different? There's a couple of weeks ago for me that the But the feeling that I had was unfamiliar to me. And that was the first time that that feel that a feeling happened where I didn't know how it would make me feel. And it was like, Oh, I was I was kind of shocked that like, I had this feeling, right, I think you'll get to a place in your life where like, you felt so many things that you're not surprised by feeling anymore. I know that it's very meta, right. But follow me for a second, sometimes we have, we have felt so many things, we have felt so many different forms of heartbreak, so many different forms of grief, so many different forms of happiness. We've been surprised, we've felt joy. And so we, we can anticipate how we will feel about a thing, just based on the information that we have in front of us. And so you remember how you felt with God, so you don't feel that way anymore. It's the equivalent of like, seeing something that's funny, and not laughing and just saying, that's funny. You recognize that as an emotion, but you didn't experience the emotion. You didn't take the joy that was there. You just recognized it as a thing. Or the last time you were in front of something that brought a smile to your face. And you said, that makes me happy. Instead of feeling the happiness. So you've been in relationship with God, when's the last time you felt him? Instead of recognizing that the thing that is you are doing in prayer, right? Because this happens to me in prayer, this is this may not be you, but this is a thing that I've realized and about myself and I'm sharing it with you. Right? Sometimes when I'm in prayer, I'm not experiencing the awe that I am talking to the creator of the universe. I'm just talking because it's common, and it's something that I do. And so I recognize that there should be an emotion there and I could call that emotion out in prayer, but I'm not feeling it. It's like knowing God but not feeling God. Like I hear God talking to me. Or guiding me but I'm not feeling God next to me. And I'm not in awe of it anymore. It's become part of who I am it's a scary thing bro. And maybe maybe that's why our Jewish brothers and sisters never spoke his name so that there could still be some awe maybe that's why when they wrote it they were careful to leave out the vowel so that they didn't mistakenly mention the name of a God who was so holy they they set up warships and I'm not suggesting that like you know we need to worship like our Jewish brothers and sisters but we need not forget why they did it. You can be a Christian Right? And be able to approach the father in a way that our Jewish brothers and sisters don't think that we should probably should because of Jesus Christ, and still be in awe All I'm saying is laugh instead of saying that things are funny. get dizzy, remembering that you're small. allow God to awe you That’s all i have on that one, I’ out