So I say, I'm a pastor who still needs a pastor. What do you mean by that Dylan? Glad you asked, go on a trip with me. This weekend. Not great, my friends, I wasn't having a great time. Some things went down in my life. And I was just like, you know, this is all trash. And it's been trashed for quite some time. I want no parts of it. It is frustrating at best. And, you know, y'all can have this whole thing. Like, you can have the podcast, you can have the church, you can have the marriage, you can have everything, whatever it is that you want, that you think that you can handle for my life, you can have it. And of course, this is me talking to God, right? Because like, I'm not giving it to you. Like, I wouldn't wish that on you. And also, you couldn't handle my people. And that would just make me mad, which is why I'm a pastor in the first place. You see the circular logic that we're having here. I'm a pastor who needs a pastor. So this weekend, like I said, Didn't go great. It was like a crescendo of really terrible things. I don't know if you've had a weekend like that before. Or if you've had a week like that some of you might have had a month or so like that, where it was just a crescendo of bad things, right? Where you're in the part of the movie, where everything has fallen apart, and you have no idea how to put it back together. That part of the movie, but it's lasted for quite some time. And it's been difficult, difficult to like, you know, do the things that I'm supposed to be doing. And then I went to church. I know, I know, it sounds like an old, like, I'm about to give you a hymn. But like it's true. It's absolutely true. All of this stuff was going really bad. And I couldn't get out of my head about it. And then I went to church, I was in a space with a bunch of believers, people who believed that the blood still worked, and that God is still able, and they still say things like that. A preacher who get up and tell you that your crap stink. And that's okay. Because all of our crap stinks. But we need to clean it up a preacher who will get up and tell you that, yeah, you do need to take responsibility for your own emotions in this. And if you are allowing someone to steal your joy, it's just that you are allowing them to steal joy that they didn't give to you. Do you remember that song? This joy that I have? The world didn't give it. So the world can't take it away? That's a true thing. It absolutely is. But I needed to be reminded of that, from my pastor this weekend. And I was I needed to hear the Word of God and be with the people of God, to try to get me back on the right track. And I know it's sexy and invoke. And people say things like, I don't need nobody to get into the presence of God. Like, I don't need to go to church. I don't need to be around these. Maybe you don't. Maybe Maybe there's something that you know, you figured out that I haven't yet. Maybe he's your spiritual life is way stronger than mine. Maybe your life ain't as crazy as mine. I don't know what it is. But I know that I need the saints. I know that I need to spend some time with people who believe so I can borrow some of their belief. Man, I know, I know. We don't believe that anymore. Right? They're like, we believe that we're self sufficient. But sometimes, even me, as a pastor, I need to borrow some of your belief. So if you don't believe anything, is there anything for me to borrow? If I get around you and I'm at my lowest low, is there any faith that I can hold on to from you? Like, if if it's just me, if I'm just depending on me, and my relationship with God, I'm pretty sure I'd go insane, I come almost 1,000% positive that I would end up in a worse depression. That I wouldn't be able to get out of it if it wasn't for being able to be in a community. And not just any community but a community of faith. When these people ain't perfect and ain't pretending to be a pastor who needs a pastor. I'm a pastor who needs to go to church. I know, you know, it's not a popular thing to say. It's not a thing that you know, you'll hear from most pastors, but sometimes on Sunday morning don't need to be preaching. I need to be listening. Sometimes, just sometimes I need to borrow some of your faith. So could you let me hold a cup? There's been so I said, and I just did. I'm out